I realize that I am not
blondehairblueeyessoutherncomfortwithmycrazytitsallovertheplace
and that i very much am circlepeginsquarehole.
I can't control that societal glitch of loving someone that is
just
all
wrong for me(and let's face it, neither can you).
But love you I do, and it's like pulling teeth.
I'm waiting for the consequences of your
toxic decisions
to fizzle out. I'm waiting for the tide to ebb,
so that we may kiss and touch and smile and laugh
with our lungs not burning from drowning in all this hushed privacy.
What are you waiting for?
I will not kiss you with my eyes closed so tight any longer,
because yours betray every velvety intention.
I will not stitch my mouth shut against the hard candy of your words,
and every lie will shine like
the coins you shove into your pocket; a currency of reminders,
my face engraved in them.
Heads I lose, tails I'm lost.
I'm lost I'm losing you
Losing you in black eyelashes
Lost in pink tongues
I'm lost in how to lose you,
so instead just say you'll stay.
I'll be the only version of myself I can be,
can you find beauty in that?
1 comment:
i know that i previously stated that i was going to rip him to shreds and make him rue that night, but i will piece him back together from those shreds that i ripped, and the ones that he himself guiltily ripped, if that is what you want. because i will support you in whatever, whichever, or whomever you choose.
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