and words float out like holograms

i keep writing and deleting,
writing and deleting...

there's so much i could say to fill this blank screen, but i keep swallowing it down so you'll think i'm doing fine.

but really,
really the truth is honestly sincerely

i miss you and
whatever else i could say would amount to nothing more than those three words.

i did everything wrong. i tried to rebuild it so that we might not notice how really cracked and fragile we were. i didn't pay attention to the screaming siren in my head that said the only thing that matters is you&me. that was the only foundation i needed.

but i rebuilt this in the sand, and now i'm out to sea, trying to keep myself afloat on the splintered hope scattered about me.

i'm sorry. i'm sorry for ever thinking that we were both invincible to anything outside of us. we're only human after all.

my first instinct is to say
let me fix this, let me fix this, let me fix this.

but maybe what i should be saying is
let me love you, let me love you.

i'm holding my breath for the next leap into who knows. i just hope it comes soon.